October 6, 2012

Right direction

These past few weeks, I have been James Bonding around the US. 
DC, Baltimore, Richmond, Orlando and now Chicago and soon off to California. Yup...my life.

Don't get me wrong; I love travelling and seeing new places. Its just that every time I get on a plane/bus or whatever, I feel like I am going in the wrong direction. 

It makes me long for the things I do not have, all these traveling does. I stand in line at TSA and babies smile at me and my womb literally contracts. Older men open doors for me and I miss my father. Young men wearing their multicolored Nikes make me wish my brothers were right beside me to see all the amazing things the world has to offer. Lovers holding onto each...sigh, lets not even explore the multifaceted feelings seeing them bring. 

I just want to stop. In the midst of all these crowds racing to make sure they don't miss out on their destinations, I just want to stop. Stop and breathe. Stop and close my eyes. Stop and remember why I was going that way in the first place.

It has been a minute in this space. Life continues to happen. I miss blogosphere. All my favorite bloggers are MIA. It is maddening. I find myself going back to their blogs, reading their last posts and looking for hints of where/how they might be. I am a storyteller. Believe me when I say I have made up stories about the lives of each one of these bloggers. T-Notes is really a pervert(duh) in real life but some girl finally  has him on the path of change. Muse is in his early forties and experiencing a mid-life crisis. Rethots is still rethinking everything and is a PHD type guy.

Christmas will be here soon. All I want is to finally be on the right plane, the right bus, the right whatever it is...I just need to know I going in the direction of home. 

Heaven only knows where that is...

Song of the day: Oleta Adams - Get here if you can

17 comments:

  1. Wherever the providence of God may dump us down, in a slum, in a shop, in the desert, we have to labour along the line of His direction. Never allow this thought—“I am of no use where I am,” because you certainly can be of no use where you are not! Wherever He has engineered your circumstances, pray.

    I think you are getting to where I have been for a while now.
    As you have said 'Heaven knows' jejely focus on that heaven so you no go lost along the way.
    So I am not one of your favorite bloggers eh, I am not EH!!! (in a Kiah voice).
    Jesus is watching you on this very Sunday

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    1. you are not one of my MIA fave bloggers...lol

      you are back for hibernation so... :p

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  2. Great song that.... And good luck with finding home...

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    1. i love that song...i know it by heart! :)

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  3. I know the feeling, been there definitely. When things are fast you wish they could slow down and when they are slow you want them to speed up a bit. I am currently in the latter state of being. Good luck finding the median of the two feelings. :).

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  4. Girl, I also know the feeling. I can't even offer any advice on the matter...

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    1. lol...like seriously...i have slept on a total of 8 different beds within this past month...sigh. all i want is my Vitafoam! :(

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  5. The post almost seems poetic. lol. :P

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    1. Almost??? yes yes...we realise you are the master of the game and we, mere apprentices :p

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    2. Right now at this very moment I feel the same like I am lost and the wind is taking me to any direction it desires....micheal buble's home for the long road trip towards the right direction.

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  6. *LOL* @ 'James Bonding round the US' .....

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    1. MUSCO!!! i should have added you to the list of MIA Bloggers! :)

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  7. So i am not one of your favourite bloggers abi?

    I know how u feel...i'm giving you a big cyber hug right now.

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  8. Hahahahaha!!!!!!!!ROTFWL!!!!
    Perv who, what?!!!!!!!!!!!
    Btw...i love the way your words are often few, yet somehow manages to resonate with depth...

    Yet...
    T-Notes is really a pervert(duh) in real life but some girl finally has him on the path of change.

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  9. I agree, the post sounds poetic. Forlorn (if that's the right word). Things have a way of falling into place once you have peace within. Start seeking that peace.

    P.s- found you through T.Notes and his notes did make me cringe a little. Lol. I'm happy he's now someone's pet project. Lol! Ok I'm kidding. He's not that bad.

    Hi T.Notes :)

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    1. at least he is making himself using and sending folks this way...hello and welcome...

      now dont be a stranger... :)

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